Staying home is making me sickk & a little depressed!! I’m starting to miss my family a LOT!!! &it just makes me sad cause I have no idea when I’ll be going back to visit….it suppose to be next month….but we see! My bf takes the car to work,so all I have to do….is sleep clean & the iPad! I enjoyed it the first couple days…but now it’s just killing me! I don’t regret what had happen,that got me fired but I wish I hadn’t got fired! (make sense?) & as soon as my bf comes home,all he wants to do is relax….I don’t blame em’,cause he does work hard…but i wanna get out of the house….not without him tho’ …so yes life is pretty boring now!! Only fun is the weekends!
Thank god it’s Friday!!
By all means I have sooooo much respect for Kama’s parents because of everything they have done for me since we’ve been together……..but I feel so much negativity coming from his mother lately! It’s unreal!!!! I don’t bother her,I don’t disrespect her,I hardly even talk to her & I can this “i dont like you” attitude from her!! She does & say things to try &make me jealous….when in reality it just seems like she jealous (sorry to say)… She does this to me & Kama’s brothers gf!
But I guess because she only has two sons & she’s been the only woman in their lives…..that she can’t get over that fact that Kama & his brother are giving all their love &attention to other women!!!
I don’t understand,it’s been two years since his brother&the gf has been together & his gf is still feeling the same negative vibes from her!
I guesssssssss……
I just don’t know how long I’ll be able to put up with all this before I explode!! I wanna be straight up with her cause that’s the person I am….but I know things might get outta hand…..& that would look so bad on me (disrespect) so to make things easier I guess the only option I have is for us to move out!!! I can’t wait!!!!!
I notice since me & Kama has been together,we both lost a lot of friendships & gained a whole lot of haters!! That’s simply because majority of theses people around us don’t want us together…..& it’s going on 7months &people are still Trynna break us….but I guess that’s how it’s always gonna be….
Let’s just say,idgaf I don’t need friends….my love & family is all I need&im sure everyone else’s feels the same way. I love Kama no matter the obstacle…no matter where life takes us…nothing will break us…
So I lost my job on Friday,due to some bitches that can’t handle the motherfckn truth!! On a good note tho,i aint gotta put up with bs & i aint got no stress!! But I’m just so thankful that my hunnie has a job!!! & now I’m on a hustle for a job & in the meantime he’s taking care of me,while I be a housewife…I must say day one….things are looking good. But I just can’t wait to find a new job cause staying home really ain’t my thang… I’d rather be out there makin my own money…&spoiling my hunnie…ohhhhh we’ll gotta keep my head up & stay strong!!
Thank you jesus for all your blessings…
Why would you try & force your kid to do something YOU want them to do!!. I’m so annoyed with his parents telling everybody that hes joining the military& my bf for not speaking up & telling them that it’s not what he wants to do!!. You can’t always make your parents happy!! & if your not gonna be happy doing it,then why would you do it!. I guess my bf is so used to making them happy,proud,impressing them! We’ll see what happens when he tells them he’s not going!!..
Anyways I’m so excited he’s graduating Saturday, then were saving up & moving to Oahu!
When everything feels so right, meaning im SO HAPPY!. & here comes something, that fcks everything up!. Its either a feeling or somebody!.
FML. :/
